nascence of a revived laceration

found a link to a picture of you i'd never seen today
tasted sweet nostalgic suspense
as i scrolled down awaiting merely to learn
new facts about you

awash with sudden surprise as i
see your smiling face staring out from among
a group of nondescripts
a shining beaming light of joy piercing my
morose melancholy
my meandering mediocrity
to remember a time when that smile was meant for me
to remember that somewhere in the past those moments still are

study it
let its new memory seep in
sweep through
draw out from me, probe, resurrect
all those cultivated
sadnesses of your loss lovely Tracy
Tracy Edelman
Tracy Lee Edelman
All for you

condemned to factical thrownness
I don't want to escape this body
addicted to
brain
addicted to
you

I know you're out there listening, Shmoo.

I can't listen to Muse without thinking of you.

I deleted too much but my hope will never be dead.

I'd rather hurt and remember than let my pain turn to apathy.

-Sn*ffy